I learned two mantras from Adam Ballenger that I always come
back when I am trying to let go of something and make room to cultivate
something else.
Mantra to let go of: Om
Pat Swaha Swaha Swaha
Mantra to cultivate (something specific): Namah Shivaya Namah Shivaya Namah Shivaya
Namo Namaha
The changing of the year is always a time when I am reminded
of this as everyone talk about setting resolutions. I have stopped making resolutions
after so many years of making them and then breaking them or forgetting about
them. Resolution can be defined as
having a firm decision to do or not to do something. So when I break or forget
about this firm decision that I resolved to do I am disappointed with myself.
Now I set intentions. Intention can
be defined as a course of action that one intends to follow; this gives me more
flexibility and instead of having strict rules or guidelines that might be in
set for a resolution an intention is more of intentional aim that guides my
actions.
Last year my intention was to work on the first principle of
Anusara Yoga, Open to Grace. (I wrote a blog about this 12/31/11).
My intention was to open up to something bigger then myself. To trust in this
bigger source of energy and give up being in control all the time and courageously
stepping into this flow of Grace. Ways I did this was with meditation,
journaling, asana practice, exploring nature, and getting together with like-minded
individuals to go deeper with this idea. As I look back over the year I didn’t mediate
every day, I didn’t remember my intention every day, I didn’t practice yoga or
journal everyday (which is probably what I would have wanted if I was doing a
resolution). But over the year I continued to come back again and again to
creating a better relationship with a power greater then myself and I made
great effort to keep an open dialog with this higher power may it be through
words, movement, silence…
Since last year my intention was first principle I think
this year I will focus on second principle. Since the principles build upon each
other I will continue to work this first principle as I begging to cultivate
second principle more and more into my everyday life. Practicing first principle
is this giving up and surrendering. Taking a big breath acknowledging that I am
not in control and that by trying to be in control I create more chaos in my
life, so instead I will let go of and trust in the universal. (When I do this
in a yoga asana class I lengthen my side bodies after surrendering with new
trust in the Universal) Building onto this the second principle, muscular energy,
is the invitation of what I going to bind on to. After creating the space and willingness
what am I going to attach myself to in
order to create more stability in my life. This can go 2 ways. I can bind onto
things that will sink me and keep me feeling low and weigh me down (not what I
want). Or I can choose to bind onto things that will stabilize and draw me more
and more into my heart and into my truth (this is what I am after). Ways I plan
to practice this is on my yoga mat binding onto the principles of alignment
that keep my body feeling so well. In meditation being a little more bound to
it and incorporating it into my daily life because binding to meditation
ultiminately helps me stay much more calm, patient, and happy. I will also be
binding onto goo interpersonal relationships, surrounding myself with people I
respect, who inspire me, who share this heart longing of living in my fullest.
I will continue to be bound to and support my loving husband and best friend. I
will work hard at showing up for myself in my fullest and showing up for my
students. I want to be bound to my own light through the choices I make and
through skillful action. I want to practice the techniques, behaviors,
attitudes that bind me closer to Grace. Christina Sell says when we use are
discrimination and skill full action that “Grace carries us, Grace showers its
blessings on us”.
“Yoga is not a path of Freedom. Yoga is a path of Exquisite
Bondage” Douglas Brooks.
Douglas says this teaching on Exquisite Bondage is paradoxical.
Once bound, we do experience a greater freedom but it’s often not what we
imagined it would be nor is the cost quite as cheap as we might have hoped it
would be.